Sometimes I just need a break......

So yesterday afternoon was an emotional roller coaster for me...
Dakota ended up getting sick and we had to take him to the doctor early Thursday morning, and he got antibiotics and we bought him a whole bunch of other things to help him get better. Well today he is running around like nothing was ever wrong with him. The fever, the cough, the stuffiness, is completely gone. He is still taking his medicine though =)
Well yesterday, I had all planned out. Go to the fair parade with the family, eat lunch with the family, meet Tanner to get the money to do the things I needed to get done, drop Dakota off at my moms, go run my errands, pick dakota up and go home. Well this is how yesterday happened for me:
Woke up and went to the fair parade with the family, which was tons of fun! Then we all went to lunch which was great also. Well Tanner ended up getting sent on every single call and when I was supposed to meet him he was on the FAR side of San Antonio, so that frustrated me. So I called my mom and asked if I could just borrow the money from her and dad and I would just give them the money when I got back because at some point in time I was going to have to meet tanner anyways. So I head over to my parent's house, thinking everything is okay, but what happens when I get in the door, I start getting yelled at by my dad...... *sigh*
He starts telling me that I need to start worrying about Dakota more and stop worrying about other things because that's the reason why he's probably sick in the first place.

Way to make me feel like a bad mother, dad! Thanks a lot!

Geeze, I don't think I have ever had my dad tell me that I'm doing a good job with Dakota. Even though I'm the one who stays home with him all day, every day taking care of him and he hasn't even been sick ONCE until NOW because the weather is changing and it's getting colder and there's a bad stomach virus going around. I don't think ANYONE in my family has EVERY told me that I'm doing a good job with Dakota. But when something BAD happens, they sure do all notice THAT and make me feel like shit for the BAD.

Sometimes parent's, especially young parent's like me, need to be told their doing a good job. And what's bad is that I KNOW I'm doing a good job with Dakota. There are so many parent's out there who treat their children terrible, and abuse them all sorts of things.
I don't know, maybe I just took it to heart to much. But sometimes I just need a break...
Besides Tanner, I'm doing this all by myself. And it sucks when my friends tell me "....oh, my child is spending the weekend with their grandparents..." or "....their going with their dad for the weekend...." Why can't I ever get a break like that?? Why doesn't my sons biological father want ANYTHING to do with him? I don't see how Dustin can go without seeing Dakota every day. If I were in his shoes, I would take Dakota any chance I GOT! I wouldn't care WHAT I had planned. That is MY CHILD!
Besides Tanner, I don't get any help with Dakota besides the every now and then my mom can babysit because her and my dad have their own problems going on right now.

I Love Dakota more than anything in this world, but sometimes parent's need a break to just relax, and enjoy some quiet time. Tanner and I already don't get to spend any time together as it is because we are always having something to do, and by the time we get home we have to take care of Dakota and make sure everything he needs he has. Like dinner, a bath, play time, story time, change his diaper and then bed and then we are so tired we just go to bed ourselves.

But tonight Tanner and I are going to the fair to see Kevin Fowler in concert so hopefully I'll get that tiny bit of a break that I'm hoping for.........